Wednesday

pilih.tidak memilih.telah memilih.lepas memilih.berdolak-dalik

kita dibenarkan untuk memilih
walaupun hakikat tak bisa memilih
kerna hidup ini katanya tak banyak pilihan
walau jauh nun sana kau pilih
itu bukan dan belum tentu pilihan asli

apa asli pilihan itu?

bila kuasa untuk memilih 
tidak ada,atau tak pernah wujud
pilih dan pilih
lalu lah dalam jurang pilihan itu
manis kata mereka 
atau hanya direka

tiba-tiba tersembam
tiba-tiba lopak-lopak luka terjadi
darahnya mengalir..merah sangat oi !
dan langsung terdengar,
"ha,siapa suruh kau pilih,lantak kaulah sekarang macam mana punn!"
"hmm tu lah kamu ni anak muda suka sangat salah buat pilihan!"

aikk??

busuk sangat ke pilihan itu.

dahulu yang tu kamu agungkan sangat.
gambar ada kena mengena.kalau tak ada pun apa kau kisah kan kan..

...................................
a poem by Aena. 
not related to anybody,everybody,nobody body,.
this is for thinking purposes only.
*peace!*

Sunday

this is what you need.you wanted to.

 
                                      a poem by Aena.2012.

you wanted me to become your wife..
your wife..
you wanted me to become a doctor..
a doctor..
and it's not me..
not me..
your family wanted me to become a doctor..
a doctor..
and it's not me..
not me..

they don't understand my desire,passion
never wanted to know
never..
you make big demand on me..
on me..
yet you know nothing about me..
i don't ask your money,your time to meet me
i don't
we are far..
i understand
this is just me..
starving for your understanding and support
yet you just left me alone
you left me
you hate me
walk away with your degree
proudly saying goodbye to me..
proudly to say you're leaving me...
because i'm just stupid.
stupid as they said.

you always asking,asking
forcing me
to become a doctor..
and
finally i realize..........
you need a doctor in your life
not a wife like me...
not like me..
just like they said to you.

and this,

the end of story.full stop.

ohh,waitttt!!
i know myself. i can live. 
with my brain.and trust towards ALLAH swt.